As far back as i remember i have had strange dreams, sometimes they have been dreams which felt a little too real.

Last nights was extremely weird though.

I dreamt my grandad was dying of cancer (my grandad died 13 years ago) and i was going to stay at the house with him until he passed.I was going to take Billy with me and place him in a school there, though i was leaving behind my daughter and my partner. 

I woke up at least 3 times last night, but everytime i went back to sleep, i carried on dreaming the same thing..my grandad was dying etc etc.

I have no idea what the dream meant, if it meant anything. Whenever i have dreamt similar dreams before, my nan has already died, yet in real life my grandad died first.

This wonderful weather we're having over here is definitely making me feel more appreciative of things lately,and keeping my depression at bay.

I bought a beautiful rose quartz a couple of days ago and i'm spending a lot of time holding it, so that we may connect.It almost leapt out at me in the shop :)

I also need to spend more time with my Oracle cards,the trouble is i have so many that i never know which ones to read.

I had a lovely conversation with my son recently too.Billy is 6 and has so many fears, he really thinks too much for somebody his age.So i told him all about his guardian angel and how his angel would look after him and if he is worried about anything,he can always talk to his angel.He asked lots of questions and then proceeded to tell me that his angel is called Christopher

I dont know how it came about but he started talking about heaven, and he turned round and said that he remembered being in heaven before coming here, that he played with friends etc.
He said that he chose who his mum would be, his sister asked whether he chose which dad too, he was adamant he only chose the mum.
I asked how he remembered all this, and he said because it was only 6 years ago and he had a good memory.I felt so special to have shared such a conversation with him.

There has always been a strong bond between us,he is so loving and deep down it goes deeper than just being a mummys boy.He has such deep brown eyes you could get lost in,I'm sure i knew him in a previous life.I don't just love this little boy,i absolutely adore him.

I just want to say thank you to all you people who have requested to be my friends.

I feel so loved lol.

i look forward to getting to know you all.

xxx 

I was  listening to an archived meditation on hay house radio the other day..There i was eyes closed, completely relaxed when suddenly my fingers started tingling and my hands felt so hot.Amazing.
As the meditation went on,i felt myself getting emotional..and then it happened, i cried.
This is a big thing for me,i NEVER cry.I cannot even remember the last time i cried..but that meditation did it for me.
It was fantastic.

You have to register to access the archived shows,but it is free and well worth it.

Healing meditation

It has been such a beautiful day today that we went for a picnic.We went through The New Forest where i got a few pics of some fallen trees,i love photographing trees..if you knew mw at MySpace you would probably be sick of the amount of tree pics i've posted there lol

I got out of the car and approached the tree,and the moment my feet touched the forest floor i felt at home.Give me forests over the beach any day :)

I also bought some more crystals,much to my boyfriends amusement considering the amount i have already.

The one thing i was really happy to buy though was an angel figurine,she is beautiful and she is a November one.I have her on my altar already.I think i may turn my altar into an angel one.At the moment it's got allsorts on there, pictures,affirmations,crystals and feathers.